I’m not sorry there’s nothing to save.

Today, something beautiful happened. I found myself in contact with a rather speedy cable internet connection and decided to sort of ’seize the day’ and just have at it, and so I downloaded Vuze and downloaded more within two hours than I did in the last two months combined. I finally got The Fame Monster, the New Moon soundtrack, the Where the Wild Things Are soundtrack, the new Vampire Weekend album Contra, the Ke$ha album (which was for my sister, really), both Glee compilations, a Neon Indian album, and Zombieland is still downloading as I type. And it feels beautiful to be doing this right now, even though illegal downloading is, in fact, illegal. I promise to delete everything one day and rebuild my library legally, but this is all I can manage for now. Besides, it’s not like the big music executives are going bankrupt or anything.

Anyway, this downloading process occurred simultaneously with insane Facebooking and microblogging to an extent that I haven’t quite done since early October, during the last days of our home DSL connection. During this time I also managed to go on the Canon and Nikon websites to check out potential cameras for when I finally raise enough funds. For this same reason I also went on the Apple site and ‘built my own Macbook Pro’, which costs about $2,600 with all the added upgrades. I really do love looking up potential material possessions. Though such habits only reflect on me negatively as they exhibit my lust for worldly things, we only live once, and living only once renders our lives insignificant. Einmal est keinmal.

And, while on all these different site, getting myself excited for series four of Skins (which comes out on the 28th — I am so excited!) and reading through missed posts on Hipster Runoff, I realised that I haven’t really made a decent blog post in a very long time. This is why I am making this entry now.

Since the last time I wrote a decent post, some things have changed. I have reverted back to the status of she who does not like anyone right now, which is a good break from the last semester, which has been pretty much useless aside from the fact that I now know that not everyone who you think is your friend really is. I don’t miss the company that I used to have last year, at least not anymore, after realising that there are so many other people who are much better. Really, there’s nothing great in surrounding yourself with negative company. I try to be surrounded by positive people who are also smart and hip and cool. 

I still love typography and wish to learn as much about it as possible, but I have to focus on the second semester. SATs are next week, I have to fill out my high school resume and come up with a list of thirty schools for my guidance counselor, I still have to decide whether or not to watch American Idol this season, and I’m beginning to wonder why Noah Cyrus is becoming culturally relevant because she looks thirty years old and is just plain weird. Also, I have a shitload to do for Monday, all of which will be postponed for tomorrow night since I’m currently in my grandparents’ house which, unlike my house, has cable TV, cable internet, and a working air conditioner. And a hot shower! One day I plan on owning this house and converting the shed in the backyard into an art studio. Oh yeah, I want to do art now. And be an artist. It would be quite nice.

More later on.

x

Christmas bells are ringing… somewhere else. Not here.

I’m not gonna go on about ICARE right now since I’m on limited internet time but I just wanna wish the whole interweb a very

RENT: Filmed Live on Broadway? BEST. GIFT. EVER.

 

MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR. So far I’ve gotten some clothes from H&M, the DVD for RENT Filmed Live on Broadway, a top from Mango, two eyeliner pencils and a blank notebook from Team Manila. And two very important messages. Lookin good so far. Annual Christmas Eve dinner tomorrow. It’s one of my favourite events because I get to see my favourite ninong. And I have some relatives over from the States, which is pretty cool. I still haven’t started SAT prep though, and I’m taking the test in — YIKES — a month!!

Really, though, when I get back to school on the 5th of January I’m gonna talk about ICARE like crazy, since it really was one of the best experiences I’ve ever had. I’ve only talked about it on Tumblr and Livejournal, but the LJ post isn’t very appropriate for general audiences. 

Anyway, happy holidays! I still have to watch Love Actually. It’s a Christmas tradition. Oh, and Avatar was pretty awesome.

More later.

K

UNPRODUCTIVE.

ME. NOW.

SAVE MY TUMBLARITY

I am so angry at not being able to use the internet as often and as freely as I want to. I’ve had to disable my Facebook wall, even, so I don’t get any more silly SocialInterview posts that are just killing it overall. My biggest problem, however, is my Tumblarity, which keeps dipping since I don’t post everyday. I USED TO HAVE 300 TUMBLARITY OKAY. I mean, seriously. This is really bad for my ego. I need people to like my posts.

Oh, speaking of Tumblr, I unfollowed some people. I wish I could unsee them and unexperience everything as well. But there’s no way of completely deleting people from your life like that.

And as for school, I messed up my OI and Impromptu auditions so I’m not expecting anything to come out of those, but I got a callback for Original Oratory for next week and I hope I don’t completely screw up.

Too lazy to write any more. Adios.

Nothing to write about right now, really, but I felt that I really had to update at least one of my blogs.

Between my last post and this one I’ve been keeping myself busy with a couple things. There’s watching Big Brother every night at 10, making sure I get all my work done before then, trying my best to keep up with the music these silly kids listen to these days (I am not musically retarded!!), tryouts for Forensics, having to write a BT article by SATURDAY (it was assigned today), all the crazy stuff I have to do for IBHL English (IB oral soon!!), SAT preparations, and, of course, trying to keep my mental, social and most importantly my emotional health from falling apart, the latter of which has been rather down since yesterday, midday. It was so horrible I actually had a physical headache, and today I found myself tearing up. Sad stuff.

While waiting for Skins series 4 to come out, I’ve found another E4 show to watch for the next few weeks. It’s called Misfits and it’s basically Skins except they’re a bunch of ASBO’d pricks with crazy superpowers that I don’t think anyone would really want (except Curtis, cos he can turn back time when he does something he regrets, which is one thing I’d love to do once in a while, especially for a bunch of things that happened in the past couple of months). The concept is pretty simple and sounded rather dumb when I first heard about it. I mean, it’s about a bunch of kids who get struck by lightning while doing community service and then end up with these crazy powers. The chav can read people’s thoughts, which basically consist of people calling her a chav, the horny black girl can turn guys into crazy rapists when they touch her, and the creepy almost-arsonist turns invisible when he already feels invisible (because no one talks to him). I already mentioned the other guy.

Oh, and there’s this other, other guy in it — he’s played by Robert Sheehan, the Irish guy in Cherrybomb whom I referred to as the ‘curly indie boy’ — well he’s just absolutely hilarious. He didn’t get any special powers or anything. I think the world just hates him or something. It’s quite sad since he’s by far the fittest of them all.

Also, aside from that, IASAS Forensics auditions are ongoing. I had my Original Oratory audition on Monday, but I’m pretty scared since there are a lot of really really goood people who signed up, and in the end only three people are actually going to Taipei. I may have gotten in last year, but the pool of competition is so intense that OO is actually probably the hardest event to go to for two years in a row. This afternoon I have my Oral Interpretation audition. I think I’m gonna do “Daddy” by Sylvia Plath. It’s a poem that I’ve never really read before, and I find it really weird. I think I’ll just wing it and not care if I don’t make first cut. I’ll try out for impromptu as well. But I suck at that kind of stuff. Speaking spontaneously. It’s horrendously difficult.

Oh, and New Moon is coming out this week. I’m not watching it, though. I’m gonna go see 2012 first. Twilight can wait until all the scary fangirls die down (or just die, pretty much). I’m thinking of more random stuff to write about right now. type type type

Since I gave this the ‘music’ tag as well I guess it would be in order to talk about how lost I am with all the ‘awesome new music’ these days. I mean, Owl City? Seriously? How did the soundtrack of about a month of my freshman year end up topping the charts? I don’t mind Owl City that much, he’s cool when I need him to be, but hearing him on the Manila airwaves is just a little bit awkward. He’s getting too popular. See, now, when he goes out of style, he’ll just be another one-hit wonder, another has-been. That would be sad. BUT if he didn’t go all mainstream, he’ll be cool forever. True story. Sad, but true.

Another sad story was a short one I read last night, “On Seeing the 100% Perfect Girl One Beautiful April Morning” by Haruki Murakami. But I’m actually too lazy to write about that right now since I’ve already reached more than 700 words.

This is crazy. I can write 700 words of BS and not about Pacquiao, really? He’s the national hero! Oh yeah, good job with the Cotto fight. I hate boxing.

OH GOD I JUST SAW THE ITUNES CHART AND I AM BOUT TO SHOOT MYSELF. See tumblr for details.

Technical Difficulties.

My internet connection at home is really crappy and so I haven’t been able to post on ANY of my WordPress blogs because the page takes too long to load. It really sucks. In the meantime, I created [yet another] WordPress:

Struggling to make a difference.

It’s… yeah.

ISM and Typhoon Ondoy Relief

I haven’t posted a while, and so I’d like to take this time to talk a little about that horrible typhoon Ondoy (Ketsana) that hit Manila last Saturday, what it did, and what our school has been doing about it, because I think that ISM has done outstandingly this past week. This is gonna be really disorganized, so bear with me.

When Ondoy messed up the city I was in school for MUN Locals. What we thought was just strong rain ended up devastating Metro Manila, submerging entire cities, killing hundreds of people, displacing hundreds of thousands, affecting millions. I didn’t see my house for four days, couldn’t contact my parents for two. When I finally came home on Wednesday afternoon, I came home to a damaged first floor that smelled like trash. It was the first time our house ever got flooded. It’s hard to imagine that there are millions who experienced worse.

On Sunday ISM announced that it would conduct regular classes the following Monday, the 28th, much to the dismay of students who were looking for a few days of freedom. However, the initial gloom and desire for rebellion was converted into something more powerful when school kicked in. Students came to school carrying various donations and relief goods, some had their own campaigns such as a rice drive and “Operation Ondoy” (McDonald’s), and a concert was planned for Friday (tonight).

And the school has been doing well in that department. My film teacher was right. Our school is a unique place wherein some of the wealthiest people in Manila are able to connect with the poorest and those who need aid the most. The idea of bayanihan could be seen in ISM throughout the week. Besides, this is, ultimately, our city, and no matter where the students may have originated from, at this time the Philippines is our country, and our country needs help.

Right now, we need to spread more awareness because the effects of Ondoy can’t just fade away because some celebrity broke a nail. This isn’t just about the need for relief, this is also about climate change. I bet the people at Greenpeace are all up in their “I Told You So” modes right now, and I guess they’re right. The past few days have been really eye-opening for me. In the end, it’s not about whether or not these disasters happen. It’s about doing something to prevent them from happening, or at least slowing down the inevitable. There’s a new storm around, Pepeng (Parma), and it’s a super typhoon. On the PAGASA site it’s called a “tropical cyclone”. So we should prepare for the worst and hope for the best.

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Every day in the past week, the FAT lobby has been filled with donated goods, and by the end of the day the lobby is empty. Two trucks of donated goods are being sent to PCF in Tondo and the Papaya Foundation in Payatas everyday.

The concert, Singin’ In The Rain, raised over P300,000 (ETA: P400,000) in cash donations, not counting food sales and definitely not counting goods donations. I do believe that Mr. Dickinson will have his head shaved on Monday due to this massive success.

Next week, the school will be showing the HS Play, The Complete Works of William Shakespeare [ABRIDGED], and all proceeds will count towards typhoon relief efforts.

On the last day before October break commences, Pista Sa ISM will be toned down from its usual grandeur and be more of a fundraiser, also for typhoon relief.

Good job, Bearcats!