Posts Tagged ‘photography’


I’m not sorry there’s nothing to save.

16 January 2010

Today, something beautiful happened. I found myself in contact with a rather speedy cable internet connection and decided to sort of ‘seize the day’ and just have at it, and so I downloaded Vuze and downloaded more within two hours than I did in the last two months combined. I finally got The Fame Monster, the New Moon soundtrack, the Where the Wild Things Are soundtrack, the new Vampire Weekend album Contra, the Ke$ha album (which was for my sister, really), both Glee compilations, a Neon Indian album, and Zombieland is still downloading as I type. And it feels beautiful to be doing this right now. I promise to delete everything one day and rebuild my library legally, but this is all I can manage for now. Besides, it’s not like the big music executives are going bankrupt or anything.

Anyway, this downloading process occurred simultaneously with insane Facebooking and microblogging to an extent that I haven’t quite done since early October, during the last days of our home DSL connection. During this time I also managed to go on the Canon and Nikon websites to check out potential cameras for when I finally raise enough funds. For this same reason I also went on the Apple site and ‘built my own Macbook Pro’, which costs about $2,600 with all the added upgrades. I really do love looking up potential material possessions. Though such habits only reflect on me negatively as they exhibit my lust for worldly things, we only live once, and living only once renders our lives insignificant. Einmal est keinmal.

And, while on all these different site, getting myself excited for series four of Skins (which comes out on the 28th — I am so excited!) and reading through missed posts on Hipster Runoff, I realised that I haven’t really made a decent blog post in a very long time. This is why I am making this entry now.

Since the last time I wrote a decent post, some things have changed. I have reverted back to the status of she who does not like anyone right now, which is a good break from the last semester, which has been pretty much useless aside from the fact that I now know that not everyone who you think is your friend really is. I don’t miss the company that I used to have last year, at least not anymore, after realising that there are so many other people who are much better. Really, there’s nothing great in surrounding yourself with negative company. I try to be surrounded by positive people who are also smart and hip and cool. 

I still love typography and wish to learn as much about it as possible, but I have to focus on the second semester. SATs are next week, I have to fill out my high school resume and come up with a list of thirty schools for my guidance counselor, I still have to decide whether or not to watch American Idol this season, and I’m beginning to wonder why Noah Cyrus is becoming culturally relevant because she looks thirty years old and is just plain weird. Also, I have a shitload to do for Monday, all of which will be postponed for tomorrow night since I’m currently in my grandparents’ house which, unlike my house, has cable TV, cable internet, and a working air conditioner. And a hot shower! One day I plan on owning this house and converting the shed in the backyard into an art studio. Oh yeah, I want to do art now. And be an artist. It would be quite nice.

More later on.



Shaking and laughing and screaming at your “deck”-ness.

28 July 2009

For no real comprehensive reason, this postcard made me extremely happy. I’m assuming that this postcard was intended to put a smile on someone’s face, but my reaction was not to the sweetness of the couple. As I said, I don’t have a reason comprehensive enough for me to articulate. It just made me happy, even though there isn’t anyone that I’m infatuated with right now. Seriously. Whoever said that absence makes the heart grow fonder is a liar. Prolonged absence causes distance, which in effect allows a person to explore other aspects of life and spend time with other people, which can cause that person to lose interest, if not forget in entirety, in the other person. That’s how it worked for me, at least. I’m fascinated in the reality that I am atypically complacent with that idea.

Last night I fell asleep past one a.m., I’m not sure when exactly, but all I know for sure is that I woke up at 3 and have been awake since. It was the first time I’d seen the morning in a while, the first time I ate a decent breakfast. It was refreshing, despite the fact that I have an unnecessary lack of sleep. What kept me up was the long-running thought that I need to go shopping, desperately. I don’t even need to make a list of things that my wardrobe lacks/I need; besides, this isn’t just about the things that I need. I honestly believe that aside from my closet’s lack of quality basics, my wardrobe at its current state does not reflect my personality accurately. I need some change, please.

Despite today’s unproductivity as a day spent criticising scenesters and window shopping online, I was able to start the day by finishing off Chuck Palahniuk’s novel, Pygmy. Though I’m not fond of happy endings in Palahniuk novels, Pygmy was definitely a fun read that was quirky, humorous, and contained Palahniuk’s signature brand of satire. Another hint of productivity today came with a visit to the dentist. I had my teeth professionally cleaned for the first time in a while and got a couple of new fillings. Thankfully I didn’t get to taste the bitter blue stuff today. Also, I’m glad I got the dental stuff finished before school.

Speaking of which, I shall officially be a junior in nine days. Mixed emotions consume me.

At this point in time, I still believe that hipsters suck. They can all wallow in their postmodernism and shop American Apparel while listening to whatever Pitchfork tells them to while appearing nonchalant and indifferent to the consumerism that surrounds them. Hipsters. They give emo kids personality. Also, the sky is blue.


p.s. I’m finally sharing INTERESTSINCLUDE with people. Since sharing is caring and whatnot.


I am not completely useless.

7 December 2008

If I had a Lomo I would be ten times happier and be less dependent on Photoshop, but hey.

I’m writing about myself right now. My sister and I had a bit of a guerrilla photo shoot this morning, before and after church. In our room, between 9 and 10 in the morning, we “rocked out” to the Jonas Brothers. After church, for about thirty minutes, we took a few photos right outside our house. We caught the attention of some people, but that’s just because Filipinos don’t know how to mind their own goddam business.

I posted some of the edited photos on my new, third DeviantArt account. I was quite happy with these. I can’t draw to save my life, but at least I know I can resort to doing this sort of stuff when I’m extremely bored.

I opened a LookBook account as well. I won’t be updating often, though. I am not a stylish person.



This is beautiful.

6 December 2008

There is a good reason why I have Tyler Shields on my Idolatry Page.

For some reason I don’t understand, this photo made my day. I Love Tyler Shields as a photographer, videographer and artist, and I love his kill series to death. He’s done some pretty great work with Brittany Snow and Ryan Eggold, as well as some members of the Twilight cast.

Check out his site. It’s amazing.

I shall now drift off to sleep.


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11 October 2008

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